Tuesday, June 21, 2005

am i part of the cure, or am i part of the disease?

OK so RRGGGHH!!! I just spent ages on this post, like almost an hour, and then i accidentally pressed some button and lost it all!! Breathe in, breathe out...

So i'll try and paraphrase the essence of what i wrote

There have been some things that have been making me angry lately, such as: two-facedness (bitching behind someone's back, but being all smiles and friendly to them face to face), unecessary negativity, selfishness (for example not really listening to what ppl are saying, but just focussing on how they are impacts on you, or saying stuff so they'll say the same thing back) and so forth.

They don't just annoy me bcoz other ppl do them, but bcoz i do them as well (Rom 2:1 'You, therefore, have no excuse, you who pass judgement on someone else, for at whatever point you judge the other, you are condemning yourself, because you who pass judgement do the same things'!). I guess i've been challenged lately about how much i care about what other people really think, and therefore how i act doesn't always match up with what i believe (as lawson said, what's faith without action? so true, how can our faith grow and be challenged if we don't actually do something about it, walk our talk, put our money where out mouth is??).

On the other hand stuff i've noticed that is really cool: when we are for each other and come alongside each other, build each other up in what we say and do, positivity (not fake-happy, or being dishonest- it's part of life that we feel horrible from time to time and we shouldn't have to be happy all the time- but if u do feel happy, why not try and pass it on?), selflessness in what we say and what we do, and so on. I've said it before, but I'm so thankful that i have so many people around me who are constantly there for me and encourage me, i don't know how they put up with me sometimes.

So yeah, no-one's perfect, least of all me. Which is the whole essence of Christianity I guess- we completely stuffed up and hurt God by how we reject Him, but He still put everything into place (ie Jesus, perfect, Son of God, took the punishment we deserved to take for rejecting God- that's full on!) so that we could have a relationship with Him (sorry if there should've been a church lingo alert in there). To quote a quote, God loves us just how we are, but He loves us too much to leave us that way.

OC's on, this is a bit of a ramble and i could say more, but i gtg (lol, shutup, i know it's sad!!)

1 comment:

lib said...

hey i was gonna write a similar post last thursday (i think it was then) and then i just wanted to cool down a bit (cos it was really irritating me) so i left it.
oh yeh just realised what i just said could sound like "oooh jess u stole my idea" but i dont mean it that way cos obviously u didnt! lol anyway yeh what i was trying to say by saying that is to tell u that i'm feeling the same way too, so i guess its a problem that we have to work on (not we as in you-me specifically but everyone).
so yeh i hope that makes sense...

(finally get to post this comment! mum turned off the net last night so i couldnt)