Thursday, May 26, 2005

the nerd returns: 25.5.05

Well its been (gasp shock horror) a whole week since i last blogged (and what a week it has been) so i thought it was about time already! Did anybody else notice that if u flip todays date (25.5.05) its like 05 x 5 = 25? Gee, why aren't i doing maths this year with this genius mind of mine!? haha...
To totally echo Lib on her site (libsterm.blogspot.com) but with no less meaning, Cam I'm so sorry about your Mum. and Sez you continue to amaze/encourage me, and you're all still in my prayers (along with Tim's family).
I remembered this verse the other day saying if you say you're gonna pray for someone, you should genuinely mean it and follow through so i've really been trying to! Actually on the topic of verses i found this other cool one the other day as well:

'We have troubles all around us,
but we are not defeated.
We do not know what to do,
but we do not give up.' -2 Cor 4:8

That kinda sums up how i'm feeling at the moment. The Archbishop elections were also on the weekend, and as many of you prob know Dad didn't get it. As well as being a bit of a disappointment bcoz I think Dad would've done a great job, it's a relief as well- I was sort of bracing myself for anything, but I'm happy right where I am at the moment! And the new guy Jeff Driver seems like a good guy with a good head on his shoulders. So that kind of came and went and I was steeling myself for Tim's funeral at Minlaton on Monday. I thought it was a great service and burial- well great sounds a bit out of place, but it really honoured who Tim was, and pointed to the hope we have in God. I found that rather than getting emotional at the funeral (as in crying I guess, even tho i wanted to- I was certainly feeling emotional) it sort of hit me when i got home. I was just exhausted from the whole week so I had a good cry and actually fell asleep at 8:30 (you read right, 8:30!! Well, it's not that early really!).

Anyway, I'm feeling a bit like i'm just keeping my head above water with schoolwork on top of everything (ahh, still haven't started my first art final i meant to start in week 1!!), so i'd better go and actually do some work! I had a good talk to a woman from church who's also a counsellor about everything after school today which was really good, just to offload and get an outsiders perspective on stuff- e.g. these are big things for us all to deal with, and everyone within the community it's impacted on is grieving in their own ways (which sounds obvious, but you know when stuff you know in ur head suddenly hits home and makes sense?) amongst other things... So yeah, I guess I'm feeling pretty stressed at the moment, but I'm finding ways to deal with it alright...

Love you all, and just wanted to say thankyou as well, you guys have been so supportive and great through everything! It's been so encouraging to see how everyone's just there for each other...
and lib HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY IN 2 HOURS AND 14 MINS!!!

5 comments:

Lib said...

why thank u jess for that mention lol... i'm so much smarter for being 17 i can spell all those car names like commodore and ford and all those other ones....

sez said...

jess, how on earth did you pick the 05 x 5 = 25 thing?! HOW?! lol

Lib said...

jess if ur so maths deprived do u want to do my integral hw?

jesster said...

lol, what can i say, my mind operates in strange yet brilliant ways ;o) Unfortunately lib, as much as i would so love to, ur integral hw might stretch and hence shatter my fragile genius! and whats with being able to spell car names, thats so random!! haha

Lib said...

car names- 1 am club joke
explain later