Monday, August 22, 2005

artathon and blogathon

WELL what a day. Started off with one of those weird nights where you keep on waking up, and feel like you never actually sleep but are just continually in a quasi-sleep zone. But that didn't make me grumpy (at least, I don't think it did...), just tired which is good (and lucky for my family :P)

Then this arvo we had this 'Show and Tell' art thing where we each had to show everything that we've done in art this yr- our first prac, start on our second, and student choice investigative study- to the other three art classes. Sounds cool hey; change of scene, get out of class, get to see everyone's work and have a bit of an insight into who they are through their creativity. Sure, it started out good enough. I was near the beginning so got mine out of the way, was gathering ideas for my back up etc. But the stage in the Forge (our school's new flashbang performing arts centre thing) soon turned from backdrop for our creative masterpieces to a torturous dungeoun chamber hell. I never want to see another back-up folder in my life. It ended up going for 3 1/2 hrs NO BREAK.

It got to the stage when one of my friends called guache paint 'goolash' paint by accident in her talk that I, feeling giddy with undernourishment, had one of those laughter things where you keep coming out with short bursts of laughter after the few ppl who also laughed have stopped laughing and you, trying to distract yourself from laughing at the unforeseen amusing event, keep inadvertantly keep replaying it over and over in your head whilst you try to distract yourself or focus on the talk. Then in another talk I leaned forward on my flipdown chair, whilst I was sitting cross legged, to see who was about to come on and almost fell off it, which then just started me off with the wierd and embarrassing bursts of laughter again with the girl sitting next to me. So that was fun.

But amidst all this fun, frivolity and mind numbing boredom, I also got thinking (for there was ample time for this) about people. I know this is a common theme in blogs atm, but I also am a lover of ppl. I love observing, listening, talking , trying to fit together all the different pieces to find out what makes ppl really tick. I thrive on people- not always having to interact, but just being in the company of people keeps my mind and heart ticking over, and stops me from becoming ridiculously self-absorbed. I used to have too much of a 'lone journey' kind of focus on life- I mean sure we're the only one's who live our lives, but we're all living lives together- while all being very different, we're all very much the same. There are so many people I want to get to know, and let them get to know me, and I hope that when I leave school I won't regret not doing that enough while I had the chance. That's something that's frustrating me atm, bcoz I haven't been going on msn much with homework (or at least trying to plug distractions) and, though it may be me being paranoid, I hate the feeling of missing out on ppl time, chat time, bonding time, whateveryouwanttocallit time. Ah well, only a wee bit longer to go.

When I got home from this artathon (at FIVE!) I continued my 'athon' theme and had a blogathon after I discovered Emma's blog, which, yes Emma, I will link to soon because I think it's a very good read (and I read all of it!). In FACT I read so much my eyes got sore and I had to put my reading glasses on (which I haven't worn for several months).

I was talking to a woman last night after sas who was in a pretty bad way (but I won't go into any details for her sake). I'll be honest and say that I felt really inadequate as a little eastern suburbs girl to try and comfort her. I never know if what I'm saying is actually helpful or a bad case of foot in mouth disease. And then I feel selfish for just thinking about how I feel! But I guess it reinforced for me what the church is, and should be all about- sometimes it feels like we (I guess broader society as well) get so caught up in petty issues when it's really all about dishing out real love- by that I mean the sort of love Jesus gave, not superficial or half-hearted, but straight to the heart and bone sort of stuff. It's good to get a bit of a shove out of our comfort zones quite often.

Sorry if this is a bit of a ramble! Ciao for now....

15 comments:

Emma said...

Hey, well I'm on a bit of a comment-a-thon latley, especially since I have NO SCHOOL THIS WEEK!!! (excitment!) But tonnes of HW (end excitment) so I am all off a sudden blog obsessed. lol and especially seeing as everyone knows about my blog now. (which I'm glad you like btw, thanks for takin the time 2 read it. hehe) anyway, yes, what was th point of this comment? ah yes I can't remember. but um, ... oh yeh, I agree with the comment about thriving on people. oh yeh thats right. thats another thing I like about Blogs, you realise that other people, even your friends, are feeling and thinking the same kinda things as you. yay! and yay for the end of school approaching rapidly. End comment.

sez said...

yeah, exactly. lol, goulash paint... not that i know what the other paint thingo was... but hey it sounds funny :P umm anyway... i forget... hmmph. but argh, 3 1/2 hours?!?!? maaaaan....

Michael said...

Heya! I loved your comment at the end there :-) A great thought to think about...

sez said...

emma why do you have no school?

Emma said...

so smart they said I could graduate already

Em said...

hey fellow hufflepuffite..yay, i remembered to come and visit your blog....i am so pumped for our oompa loompa debut...i thought of a new verse for our song, talk to u about it next english lesson....its v. interesting reading this, as i kinda get a bigger picture on your life, like feelings and what you do outside school etc. i think everyone is so wrapped up in themselves this year..but in a weird way rely alot more on friends.. lol, only tash could accidently say goolash paint..and being her i bet it was tres funny...unfortunatly don't have time for a major "blogathon" tonight...exams...who invented them???

jesster said...

yay em you found my blog and commented!! Yeah blogs are good for finding more out about ppl, i love them for that! And yeah it's cool in yr 12 how everyone's friends with everyone, but at the same time alot of the time u only see ppl in school mode... Can't wait our oompa loompa debut!! And the song!! It's gonna be GOLD!! *note to all confused readers, one of our friends is having an 18th with a fairytale theme, and me and Em (school Emma) are going as oompa loompas... we realise technically they're not fairytale, but details shmetails!

lib said...

does em have a blog too? (emma c from school)... so gonna talk to her tomorrow. i cant wait to see u guys sat night! im going as either goldilocks (have my hair in ringlets) or queen of tarts (massive red dress, tray of tarts)

jesster said...

nah i don't think she has a blog... at least not that i know of... :P Nah she doesn't. And I so can't wait for Tamika's on Sat, gotta bring the camera! Sounds like u've narrowed down ur options, both of them sound good (like the tray of tarts idea with the last one, only thing is i guess the name could have bad implications... but poo the ppl who have a prob with it!!)

"school emma" said...

hey again. i can see this is going to turn into a major hw distraction.i find it really hilarious that you have conversations in the comments...lol, lib i don't have a blog...if i did i would probably just use it to vent all my frustration and it would be one big complaint! ah i love complaining, but nothing to complain about today..zanker was away!! yay no maths.. yeah i am so pumped for saturday...libby i think u will look awesome whichever of those characters you go as..and jess, we will look as gorgeous as an oompa loompa can!!

lib said...

i see "studman" has not hit this blog yet...

lib said...

so excited abotu tonight!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11

jesster said...

i know!! gonna be so fun, *big Kev style* I'm excited!

jesster said...

(if u read this in time) what did u decide to go as?

saber said...

hehe go on msn more when ur out of school :P